I know this much is true…..

Spandau Ballet

A very great British Pop Band from the 80′s……..Their hit song ‘True’ speaks to the soul…..

I know this much is true……….But what is really true? Do we admit the truth? Do we even live within truth? Or is there nothing as it seems and we are all dwelling day to day within lies and make believe. Do we run from truth, afraid of the shame or pain that it may bring? Does it burn like fire when it shoots through our ears?

Truth. The thing we hate, yet the thing that frees us. I know this much is true…..none can handle truth.

I told you…

I tossed and turned last night

I must have rehearsed the lines a thousand times – knowing they STILL would not come out the way I want them

I recounted the few times in the past that Ive done this and failed miserably

I went over ALL the reason in my mind why not……..and then why

Then with full (well maybe not full) more like partial boldness…..anxiety…..fear….I told you…

I told you that I once stood in your face and lied to you..that when I told you I didnt like you… I lied….

There was silence…and akward silence…then like high school kids we both agreed the silence was far to akward for the both of us and we changed the subject……

But now you know……because I finally told you..that I like more more then I was ever willing to admit…..

Dont worry

Dont worry about the people in your PAST

There’s a reason they didnt make it to your FUTURE….

Love in spite of….

We in fact have to love in spite of the imperfections ~ the misunderstandings and the selfishness of others….

However…Loving your brother or sister does not mean you must accept his/her behavior. When we accept behavior that is not healthly, you then enable and perpetuate this behavior. You must love your neighbor but you dont have to have them in your home, your life or your world if its unhealthy for either party….

A little taste of Heaven

Hmmmm

Now I know you are listening when I pray. Now I know you hear me. My everyword. This is a little taste of heaven in a very tiny package. Plenty of work…..packed with questions…..so very inquisitive……But the smile will make me do anything. I have just been handed I little taste of heaven. And her name is Ona.

Foolish Heart

“Foolish Heart ~ Hear me calling

Stop before you start falling ~ Foolish Heart ~ Heed my warning

You’ve been wrong before ~ Dont be wrong anymore………

 

Renee Decartes says in meditiations:

“Is it not human to doubt that which has decieved me even ONCE”?

Purpose

I asked you for years what my purpose here on earth really is……

You’ve just told me, clearly…..

Why dont I feel any better?

I want to serve you, but sometimes I dont want to do what I was created to do….

Deflection

Isnt it funny how we deflect a situation away from ourselves when we dont want to deal with it? For example ~ have you ever approached someone and asked “Do you have that money I loaned you”? And they respond with anger and irritation, or say something like “Stop hounding me!” Its simply them deflecting the fault from themselves over onto you. Simple psychology.

I did that today (not with money) but with other things…….funny how we are all the same underneath it all.. lol

Decisions….Decisions….

It seems like life always leaves the ultimate decision to us. Ever notice how in the end we always have a choice? What do I do? Do I do what Im thinking of doing? Should I go in this direction or that one? Life gives us the basics and sets the foundation, but always leaves the final decision to us…..

One thousand things

There are a thousand things on my mind at any given moment:

Gas prices ~ What the hell is going on

Will I ever have children

Will I complete my doctorate

What will tomorrow Bring

Why is this world so damn crazy

Why has money become satans most powerful tool

Who will win the presidential election

Does it even make a difference

Why do humans always lie to themselves and each other

Why are people so fickle

What does all this really even mean

Is the entire world crazy or is it just me

Is it that I see what everyone else does not ~ or does everyone see what I do not

What is my purpose here anyway

Does things seem all the same or is it just me

What is happiness ~ is it artificial

Why is a good person so hard to find

What happened to good moral character ~ noone seems to have it anymore

Has technology really made everything impersonal

Why is a sweet soft person stepped on

Why does that person then turn hard and cold like the rest of the world

Will the world end in my lifetime

Will I make it to heaven or do I have a really long way to go

Why is a direct and honest person never liked

But a person who tells you whatever you want to hear falsely valued

Why is the truth a pill that is always so hard to swallow when its always the best medicine

Why are women so emotional while men are so logical

Why does a women never stop til she gets her point across but men wont communicate what they feel

Why are we always so afraid of what will improve our lives

Why is it when a women is strong shes called aggressive or a B!^@& but when a man is strong he is considered powerful

Am I a disappointment to God

What does he think of me seeing as though he hears EVERY one of my thoughts

There has got to be a point to this world ~ What is it?

Is there really a reason behind every encounter we have ~ cause judging from some of the ppl I have met I dont know what the hell that can be sometimes..

To be continued…